Swallowing my own load for the first time
I suppose my porn addiction is what brought me to this point. I was getting really turned on watching girls suck dick. As time passed, I started to get interested in sucking dick. I don’t think I’d actually be willing to do it in real life, but the thought of it turns me on. I still label myself as being straight but I guess, maybe a little bi-curious.
Anyway, I now have a girlfriend who swallows my load every time she gives me a blowjob. She told me it’s a little sweet and that she actually enjoys it. I said I can’t imagine how she could do that — I just wouldn’t be willing. I’m not ready to admit to her yet that I want to suck a dick and experience swallowing cum.
When I masturbate, I sometimes get the urge to taste my own cum and tell myself I’ll swallow once it happens but when it actually happens, I get hit with Post Nut Clarity afterward, and I end up feeling a bit upset. I just clean myself up like usual and regret having even thought about it in the first place.
It is a cycle too because when I get horny again, I tell myself that I’m just being afraid and need to find a way to push past this fear. I’ve been browsing the internet, looking for advice. Some people mentioned a method where you lie on your back with your feet raised to cum directly into your mouth.
Time would pass and I would never get further than enjoying my precum but things had to change. I wanted to enjoy what many others have been able to enjoy: swallowing their own cum.
Then one day, I was laying in bed and getting really horny. I actually felt a surge of courage to finally go through with it. I positioned myself up against the wall. I then lifted my legs up and over myself.
It was clear I needed to stretch more — I hadn’t done a position like that in a long time, and I lost focus pretty quickly. I was starting to get soft. I was having to masturbate just to stay hard while positioning my dick over my mouth. The strain on my neck was also not helping.
My phone was in my left hand, playing porn to keep me in the mood while the other hand continued to jerk my cock. Then it happened! Cum shot out, dropping out and into my mouth. I didn’t have time to think (and chicken out). It all happened so fast. And when it happened, I swallowed. It didn’t really taste like much, maybe because I swallowed too quickly. I noticed a strange aftertaste or smell, and it felt like something was still lingering in my throat.
I think if I stretch more, I could get the tip all the way to my tongue. I only got some on my chin, and the tip was still a couple of inches away. I really do want to feel that eruption from the tip. It was literally the first time I’d ever tried it. And I’d like to do it again soon and gain more experience. I’ll admit, it’s such an easy way to clean up.
I also want to find someone who would be open to letting me suck their dick and swallow their loads.
I have no one in real life I could tell, so I’m thankful there’s a kind community to share this with.
