My first time with a guy was with a gay friend of mine. It was totally spontaneous, and I was the one who initiated it. It was also my first time doing anything sexual, period. I didn’t sleep with a woman until the next summer.

I’d been curious about guys for a while. I was already exploring my own ass and eating my own cum after jerking off. I started to think I might be gay because the idea of hooking up with a guy turned me on way more than being with a woman. I was just too nervous to actually do it and terrified of being outed.

One of my friends had recently come out, but we didn’t make a big deal about it since he was still a good friend. One weekend I was at his place, drinking and smoking a bit, just having a good time. His roommate left for work, so it was just the two of us. Suddenly, I got this overwhelming urge to experiment. I finally worked up the nerve and just blurted out that I thought I might be gay and asked if I could give him a blowjob. He was totally surprised, but he said yes.

When I reached for his belt, he stopped me and suggested we go to his bedroom. He laid down on the bed and told me to take his pants off. I nervously undid them and pulled them down. I’d heard he was well-endowed, but holy shit, he was huge. A solid 8 inches and really thick. I grabbed it and started stroking, which brought a little bead of precum to the tip. I leaned in and licked it off, then took the head in my mouth. It wasn’t bad at all, so I started getting more into it.

He told me to take my pants off and lie on the bed, and we ended up in a sideways 69, sucking each other off. Since it was my first time, I had no clue what I was doing, so I just tried to copy whatever he was doing to me. After a few minutes, I tensed up and came in his mouth, but I couldn’t get him to finish. After it was over, the post-nut clarity hit me. I hung around for another 15 minutes or so, then left.

It took me a few weeks to process what had happened and figure out if I actually liked it. By the time I decided I did and wanted to make him cum, I was hanging out with his roommate, who told me my friend had outed me to him. I was so pissed I left and never spoke to him again.

But from that day on, I knew I loved sucking dick. My next goals were to swallow and to get fucked, and I ended up doing both a couple of years later.